will not sow in you the thought that whoever receives the money owes you any thanks. God will do what is in your interest for the salvation of your soul. The same person asked the Great Old Man whether he ought to distribute the money through his abbot, and how he should distribute it, as well as to whom. Response by Barsanuphius. May the Lord bless you, child! For you want to become carefree, and yet at the same time you do not want to, being tormented by your own will. Simply say what
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